The Bird Chirp Calling Me Name

I've got a lot free time recently. Which I'm not used to it.

So, I'm trying to find something new. Something which obviously to kill my free time.

www.twitter.com

I know I'm late for this.

But I found it fun in my way.

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Maybe you are my next troll victim! =)

Led me the way

Can't you hear?

There's the call for us

Defeat the enemy

Become warrior in bloodbath.

Pure stain inside us

Deepest regret of none heard off

As we hold to the sacred believe

Or we're just arrogant to obey

The summer breeze

Drag along the memory

In hatred and anger

Stand up became warrior

In the name of god

Let me be your fisabilillah

Along with your khalifah

I pray to you Allah

Led me the way

In your blessed way

Hurt and Hurt more

It just hurting me.

Whatever the outcome, it just hurting me.

I can't write anything with this pain.

It will only produced anger and hatred.

I can't share it here, it just hurting me.

Keep on thinking and asking myself "what should I do?"

But it just keep hurting me

Please. I don't know what to do.

Someone who read this, please enlightened me.

Help me to go through this.

My Left & My Right

It's been a while for me, working out my own brain especially the left one.

The Left Brain a.k.a Thinking:

• Logics
  
• Sciences & Mathematic
  
• Prefer rules
  
• Linear
  

My world has been created and taught to use mostly the left side. Living in an academically success family background has made me the urge to follow the elders.

But somehow, the right brain needs their time too. I've spend a little time for myself to pampers this kind of need. For those wondering what the right brain is all about, read it through the bottom

The Right Brain a.k.a Feeling:

• Subjective
  
• Spontaneous
  
• Arts & Music
  
• Intuitive

Some said, we need to do activities to balance our brain functions. By listening to music while working might helps. But as for myself, I've hooked up with the Right function. The exploration in arts, music and feelings has taught me a new perspective of view in my own life. In the other word, I live in my own universe.

Being a scientist or an engineer always LEFT me out. I think it's my RIGHT who keep me smiling exploring my life.

A nice poster from Mercedes-Benz. I took it from here

http://modular4kc.com/2011/02/25/left-brain-or-right-brain-both-are-mercedes-benz/

I might be sleeping right now

A tiring but super fun!

I sleep early so I can watch today's early match. Both were Arsenal rivals.

It ends up with 3 points were Chelsea's

Chelsea 2 - Manchester United 1 at Stamford Bridge

Thanks to Chelsea. You have made the league point gap closer for us,The Gunners!

In Arsene We Trust!

Rupture of a time

A part of my life has made me realize.

A dream, a regret, a relations, a hope and a future shattered in a split second.
Drowned to deep under where no men can rescue me. These story will I kept untold, I'll let the sadness eats me.
To kept me pinched awake, whenever I'm falls asleep.

Despite the pains I had, It's actually a story written in a fresh notebook. The pains relief by a fake smile and turns out as compliment to myself. It's the price I've to pay anyway.

Along the journey, I've met a few to be spoken here. A few people. Which has same similarities.
Similar in survival from a mistake in past and they succeed.

I've gather the thoughts, all of them have something to drive against their past.
A knife pointed in their butt to kept they running ahead. Rather not stopping and living alone in sadness.

What makes me running?What makes me ACTUALLY running?

LOVE?
DREAM?
or I just running because everybody was in their pursuit?Because I'm afraid to be left behind?

NO.period.
I kept running because of my responsibilities.
I have my debts on Abah and Mak. I have my debts on along,angah & ikah. I've have my debts on my family.
They are the one who catch me whenever I needed in my worst moment.

I must pay them. Not in materialistic term.

I owe you all. My tears in pains doesn't enough for it.
Thanks to Allah because still giving me a chance to look for them. Giving me a chance to erase the footprint to disaster.
Some way and somehow I still can't doing it 100% but I rather die trying.

I love them very much. I missed them now
Ya Allah, if you hear my pray. Please buy me some time to repay them.

Introduction

No need an introduction on myself.

It just me saying anything crossed my mind along the journey of life.

I'll be myself, a brand new myself which I don't have a logic understands if this will bring me the happiness I'm looking for.

And what I'm looking for?

Ask yourself what you really looking for and you'll get same answers as mine.

It's not funny when you already know what you will be one day. Way not funny.

Still remember the rhyme?

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera

What will be, will be.

What will be, will be